Third day in 2oo9.
I feel abit energetic compared to few days ago. Maybe I was excited getting ready all the stuff for my education. When I think of what I did in 2oo8, I found that it's quite BORING. Perhaps I'm used to school lifestyle. Where I have to wake up at 5.30am, then back home around 5pm. ACTIVITIES all the time in the school. Persatuan. Extra class. Club. Sports. Bulan Bahasa la...Bulan Sejarah la...whatever bulan. Then, penyampaian hadiah again. MPPPra-U. Wahhh...lifes really gets stress at that time. Not yat mention about all sorts of ceramah, test and bla bla bla. Everyday, meeting classmates, meeting friends and teachers. At least life is more fulfill during my "school" day. Eisehhh.. Then come to 2oo8. I date with my BF(we date before 2oo8). Then I am able go outing more compared to last time. As I have no need to worry about my studies. Went to Langkawi, KL, A'Famosa then recently went to Kuching with BF and Perng. I'm teaching at the first 6 months then I resign. The rest 6months, I spend time with family and BF and some friends. Then abit of drama with this girl. Sigh...
Okayyy, enough with the flashback. I know, mostly everyone is flashing back what they did in 2oo8 and what they hope to achieve in 2oo9. Well, I'm included as well. This year, I hope to be a good daughter and sis in my family. I'm quite sad that I need to stay at outside as if I'm leaving them. (study) My mood abit down right now.
Besides that, my studies gonna go well. One year break, I'm not sure I'm still cekap or not. Maybe my brain karat already or what. Hopefully it's NOT. Then finally comes to me and my BF. my relationship doesn't go well you know. As I'm easily ger effected by other things. Last year, I have an issue with the ex. When I'm think of it, I'm speechless. I can't stop people's mouth. They can say I have wai mouth or whatever. I really can't stop it. The only thing I can do now, move on. And now, I'm really MOVED ON. Not to hide, I will feel sad when get any judgement by outsiders, I feel down...and needs abit of time to open my mind. However, humans are judgemental, They simply judge based on the wrapper but not what is inside. Can't help it.
I simply understand what it means when I hear what my bro's collegue say just now. (after climbing Canada Hill, then went to eat ice opposite Imperial) He told us one day he was on a plane to China. And then he saw this old man that aged between 60 and 60above, holding hands with a very young girl. He thought he's the grandfather and the young lady is granddaughter. He's wrong. They are husband and wife. other passenger have this judgemental looks on the two of them too. Except those amo la..biasa la kan. So, it can't be avoided. If the old man go and explain to every passenger in the plane, he might just lose his breath there right? (bukan mokkutuk nya ninggal arr...hehe) Why don't just let people talk? He continue sitting with the ones he chose to loved. You, me and anyone...are deserve to be judgemental. But there's a limit there. I can't be avoided from it as well, but i chose to solve it by ignore it. Ignore them, ignore for my own good.
hating is tired, loving is joy. I choose love over hate. Others are just nothing
.
Go with the flow. Take a day time not to think past, but what the future hold for me.
Happy 2oo9 to myself
I feel abit energetic compared to few days ago. Maybe I was excited getting ready all the stuff for my education. When I think of what I did in 2oo8, I found that it's quite BORING. Perhaps I'm used to school lifestyle. Where I have to wake up at 5.30am, then back home around 5pm. ACTIVITIES all the time in the school. Persatuan. Extra class. Club. Sports. Bulan Bahasa la...Bulan Sejarah la...whatever bulan. Then, penyampaian hadiah again. MPPPra-U. Wahhh...lifes really gets stress at that time. Not yat mention about all sorts of ceramah, test and bla bla bla. Everyday, meeting classmates, meeting friends and teachers. At least life is more fulfill during my "school" day. Eisehhh.. Then come to 2oo8. I date with my BF(we date before 2oo8). Then I am able go outing more compared to last time. As I have no need to worry about my studies. Went to Langkawi, KL, A'Famosa then recently went to Kuching with BF and Perng. I'm teaching at the first 6 months then I resign. The rest 6months, I spend time with family and BF and some friends. Then abit of drama with this girl. Sigh...
Okayyy, enough with the flashback. I know, mostly everyone is flashing back what they did in 2oo8 and what they hope to achieve in 2oo9. Well, I'm included as well. This year, I hope to be a good daughter and sis in my family. I'm quite sad that I need to stay at outside as if I'm leaving them. (study) My mood abit down right now.
Besides that, my studies gonna go well. One year break, I'm not sure I'm still cekap or not. Maybe my brain karat already or what. Hopefully it's NOT. Then finally comes to me and my BF. my relationship doesn't go well you know. As I'm easily ger effected by other things. Last year, I have an issue with the ex. When I'm think of it, I'm speechless. I can't stop people's mouth. They can say I have wai mouth or whatever. I really can't stop it. The only thing I can do now, move on. And now, I'm really MOVED ON. Not to hide, I will feel sad when get any judgement by outsiders, I feel down...and needs abit of time to open my mind. However, humans are judgemental, They simply judge based on the wrapper but not what is inside. Can't help it.
I simply understand what it means when I hear what my bro's collegue say just now. (after climbing Canada Hill, then went to eat ice opposite Imperial) He told us one day he was on a plane to China. And then he saw this old man that aged between 60 and 60above, holding hands with a very young girl. He thought he's the grandfather and the young lady is granddaughter. He's wrong. They are husband and wife. other passenger have this judgemental looks on the two of them too. Except those amo la..biasa la kan. So, it can't be avoided. If the old man go and explain to every passenger in the plane, he might just lose his breath there right? (bukan mokkutuk nya ninggal arr...hehe) Why don't just let people talk? He continue sitting with the ones he chose to loved. You, me and anyone...are deserve to be judgemental. But there's a limit there. I can't be avoided from it as well, but i chose to solve it by ignore it. Ignore them, ignore for my own good.
hating is tired, loving is joy. I choose love over hate. Others are just nothing
.
Go with the flow. Take a day time not to think past, but what the future hold for me.
Happy 2oo9 to myself
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